If-- you can't say it, and you won't show it... then... I'd be forced to assume you didn't want it, or that-- what I can offer isn't good enough for you to want.
But I want-- I want you to be able to tell me these things. ... I want to be able to discuss these things, with you. You don't have to... say it out loud, always. Over the phone, or-- a letter, or a note... anything is fine.
Whatever makes it easier for you. Whatever... helps.
... I-- don't know. Isn't a courtship just... the old-fashioned way of dating, anyway?
[ a pause, relaxing slightly to rest her chin on his shoulder. ]
If-- if we... you know, do it, then isn't-- that's beyond courtship already, isn't it...? Um. ... it doesn't have to be different, if you don't want, I think. We don't have to be... dating, or-- you don't have to call me your girlfriend, or anything like that.
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What if I have no interest in saying what I want?
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I don't want to push my wants on you.
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I know.
But I want-- I want you to be able to tell me these things. ... I want to be able to discuss these things, with you. You don't have to... say it out loud, always. Over the phone, or-- a letter, or a note... anything is fine.
Whatever makes it easier for you. Whatever... helps.
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...I suppose I can try to express it.
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I, um. I am... sorry. To push on this, specifically. But if... you could, I-- it would ease my mind, quite a bit.
[ a pause, before continuing, quieter; ]
... I really did think you didn't like kissing, or anything like that.
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No, I enjoy it...
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smiles, despite herself, and slowly pushes herself up out of the chair to cross over to stand in front of him, holding her hands out. ]
... can I?
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then slides her hands out of his, so she can reach up and cup his jaw, gently kissing his cheek. ]
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he wasn't expecting anything that sweet or tender]
...you really do treat me too kindly, Cypress.
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... I really like you.
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You're so kind and deserve so much better.
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I think I want you.
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he ssslowly lifts his arms to finally wind them around her waist]
Why doesn't any of this scare you?
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I am-- scared. Of course I'm scared. But I-- maybe I want it enough to try anyway.
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[ more embarrassed not, squeezing tighter and hiding her face ]
Letting you-- touch me, and see me, w-would leave me vulnerable, too, but mmmm.... m-maybe I do want to try it...
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You are the one who told me that sex required trust. But, is this just about sex, or is it about... a relationship?
[wit 0]
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... both?
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What would be the... difference between a relationship and our courtship now? Is there any true significance?
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[ a pause, relaxing slightly to rest her chin on his shoulder. ]
If-- if we... you know, do it, then isn't-- that's beyond courtship already, isn't it...? Um. ... it doesn't have to be different, if you don't want, I think. We don't have to be... dating, or-- you don't have to call me your girlfriend, or anything like that.
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--I want you to be mine, and mine alone.
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and she's. frozen, for a long moment, face hot-- but. ]
C... could I ask you for-- one concession?
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