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... what do you mean?

[his voice is soft and timid]

I felt a great anguish. Something akin to fear, which I have not felt in years.

[parasites, what parasites, don't know her]

When you shot Cosmo, and when even that despicable sister of mine was being punished, what I felt was... indescribably unbearable. For different reasons, in different ways, but painful nonetheless. Something's come over me and it's awful.

[ listens quietly, expression subdued. ]

... I think it's-- simply because you care about them. I don't think anything is wrong with you, Sunny.

[exhales slowly]

I felt it towards you after you fired the gun, too.

...

I don't know what I would call that. I won't assume what feelings you may or may not have towards me.

Then I will be up front.

I was afraid to lose you.

[ looks up at him, surprised. ]

... you were?

[looking away, avoiding her gaze]

Foolish, isn't it? My own unitmate is shot, and beneath the concern I have for him is the unfettering thought that I don't want to lose anything I have with the person who shot him.

[ she doesn't... understand. How he could still want her after all that.

And yet somehow, he does. ... doesn't he?

She hesitates a long moment, voice a little wobbly when she finally speaks. ]

I-I'm-- sorry... to have put you i-in a-- difficult position. Like this. I--

[ another pause, struggling, before she bows her head. ]

... I don't... want to let you go, either.

[takes a deep breathing to steady himself, finding relief in how nervous she sounds

because same]

[turns to face her, trying to look calm and collected over here]

What are we to do when we are forced to part with our graduations?

[ stiffens, eyes widening. ]

I-- ... I-I don't... know.

[ ... helplessly: ]

I don't think about the-- future.

You have to stop me from destroying Dusk's kingdom, don't you?

I-- yes, but...

... I-I don't... want to have to hurt you. I don't want to be alone, in a strange place, with nobody.

[it's about now that he realizes

he doesn't want that—for either himself or her]

[what's the point of going back to his world only to be hindered from doing the Only Thing he wants anyway

and why isn't that as compelling anymore]

[

wait does this mean he wants more out of life now]

Edited 2021-05-20 17:13 (UTC)

[THIS IS CONFUSING AND BAD, runs his hand through his bangs with a frustrated huff]

[then stiffly drags his hand down his face]

What worse is it than dying alone in your world?

... dying righteously protecting others, for my Lord and God above, is different.

[ quiet, for a long moment. ]

I would-- ... like... to be with you. For as long as I can.

[ which feels like an admittance of something terribly, shamefully selfish, that she has no right feeling and does not deserve.

and yet. ]

Edited 2021-05-20 17:22 (UTC)

[he hates that]

If it'd only be for what I assume to be a short while, I would be the one left alone in a strange place with nobody, wouldn't I?

[ freezes up again, shoulders tight, before managing to squeeze out: ]

N-no. No, I'm-- I'm saying... ...

[ ... but she weakly trails off again, shivering. ]

[stands up to go over to his closet]

What are you saying?

...

I'd... like to try to-- to stay together. As long as possible.

[pulls one of his overcoats out of his closet to drape over her shoulders, even if she's not actually cold]

...until we have to part ways?

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